Now playing MIA by RAY BLK ft Kaash Page (honestly can’t wait for her album).
Life is such a drag (a wise word from Shikamaru)… I considered adding sometimes at the end of that statement, but decided not to because life literally sucks the living day out of you. I know that as a general rule, we all recognize that some individuals have it worse than others, yet our issues seem insurmountable within our own small universes of existence. Now, I’m a pessimist by nature, and I frequently refuse to live in the past because it’s gone, and I dismiss the present because the future is fucked. I’m still here, though, somehow…
I’m still kicking boulders up a mountain and breathing the same air as everyone else. If you ask me why, I’ll tell you. It’s probably because all of the other options appear to be horrible. On good days, I’m not suicidal, but the idea of quietly dying appeals to me as a path to somewhere serene. I tell myself that I won’t be upset if I sleep and don’t wake up. I realize no one knows what’s on the other side, but I’m confident it’s better than what I’m living now. But, after years of going to bed and waking up, I don’t suppose I’ll be drifting off into the night anytime soon. I’ve told myself many times that my circumstances don’t define me and that my current condition shouldn’t be used to limit me, but it’s easier said than done.
Receiving unpleasant news, dealing with problems, and experiencing difficult raw emotions such as anger, sadness, fear, and grief are all examples of bad days. Why can’t we feel love and happiness all the time?
On this subject, motivational speakers always have different opinions. Some would tell us that happiness is merely a state of mind and that we can be happy all of the time. Others will inspire us to go through our emotions, find our courage, and find our core, among other things that motivational speakers often say. It is important to remember that it’s simple to give counsel to others, but when life gets in the way, there’s no easy way out.
Skipping or fast-forwarding is not an option for me because I seem to have lost my life’s remote control at birth, or maybe I mistakenly left it in the womb. I have to face the darkness and that’s all there is to it. However, there are a few words that I keep in mind. Will Rogers is said, “If you find yourself in a hole, stop digging.” Another quote from Winston Churchill, “If you’re going through hell, keep going.” It is pretty much self-explanatory. I will only add that it may look contradictory to the quote about digging a hole, but it is not. The former is a hole you are digging, the latter is a hell you find yourself in. It is also a reminder that hell, at least in its human form – the one we create, does have an end.
Anyways life sucks… We’re just doing the best we can do with it and if you’re going through something, keep going or smoke weed or grab a drink and rethink your direction. Whatever works for you.
Molayo x ✌🏾.