Before I begin, let me thank those of you that have supported me since I started blogging by reading and sharing my posts. I really do appreciate you for not giving up on me, considering my inconsistency at times. Thank you.
Well, hello everybodyyyyy! It seems like something I say a lot, but I do feel that as I get older, I need to start making changes in how I live and towards my blog. Okay, this particular change is as important as today being my birthday. Before you started reading, I’m sure you must have noticed some changes. I have just launched my website and moved things around a bit.
I am really excited about this big change in my blog and I think this is a great opportunity to serve you better with some things that bother my mind and to share my life with you. Launching this website has to be one of the best things that has happened to me this year and I really hope I continue to inspire you in every way possible to pursue your dreams and be able to express yourself, becoming the best version of you.
20-thriving, 20-favorite, 20-forever young, 20-wow, 20-oh no I’m growing old, 20-I need a job, 20-heartbreaks, 20-reality check, 20-I need to get my life together, 20-fine, 20-when are you getting married, 20-paying your own bills, 20-good/broken relationships, 20-my mates are doing a lot better, 20-taking responsibilities, 20-FEARFUL.
Yes, this girl just turned 20. It’s my first decade of being an adult (betting that I still won’t feel like one by thirty though) and I have no idea what it’ll hold. Everyone in their twenties have fun filled experiences but it can be overwhelming at some point. From trying to be independent, figuring life out, finding career path, relationships, finances, the society pressure and other factors. It’s just hectic. Also, the society has set high standards for people in their twenties to have it together because they are ADULTS. A stage we thought we were more prepared for. Now look at me. Lol.
It’s easy to plan our lives in our head but it doesn’t always play out that way in reality. This minute you feel you’ve got things together and the next minute you have no clue of what you’re doing and it sucks. But then, it doesn’t always have to be that way. It’s a phase that comes every now and then. How you handle it is what matters. At this stage, there’s always an unavoidable comparison of your age mates having made it already making you disappointed in yourself. You are trying hard to balance the curve of what family, friends, and society expect from you and what you expect from yourself.
For the majority of the past decade, I let some aspects of myself knock my confidence. I can’t tell you how many opportunities I missed out on down to self doubt and my anxious mind, creating scenarios in which nothing turns out right. Now I’d like to think I push myself more and don’t let these aspects of myself hinder my progress.
This last year has taught me a lot about myself and what I think about things. It has also taught me something about the world and my place in it. Right now, I know my limits to what I can do.
So now, as my blog title says, I’m waving goodbye to my teenage years as I step into my 20s where Im now considered a “real adult”. To be honest, I can’t believe that I’ll be expected to start acting my age. The fact that Im 20 is just really funny to me because I still believe I’m sixteen. I’m still a child please. Nonetheless, as daunting as it may seem, I’m excited about what the next stage of my life will bring.
Evidently turning 20 hasn’t blessed me with the ability to string together a coherent blog post, but there you go.
Happy Birthday to me!
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