Happy new month dears, it’s not too late to wish y’all or is it? Last month was a good one for me, and i thank God for that. I’m not here to give a motivational talk or something, I’m just here to talk. I’ve been going through a lot during these past few weeks, trying hard not to get myself to that stage of giving up on everything. I want you guys to understand that, not all your friends are actually okay. Don’t let their smile and laughter deceive you. Talk to them. Ask them if they’re really okay. Don’t just assume they are fine.
One thing that I’m so bad at is that, when this thing comes in, I try my possible best not to tell anyone. I don’t know, but I’m really not okay telling people my problems. Not that I don’t trust them or something, but that’s just my nature. I’d rather deal with it by listening to music or writing it out.
There’s a personal reason why I prefer writing. My life is more tolerable when I write. My senses are usually overwhelmed by emotions and chaos. I numb myself, shield myself in a dull shroud. But writing frees me, allows to express intense emotion, to re-order the chaos. When I write, I put my grief in words, and find my comfort in silence, hoping to find my way back.
If you have a friend that’s fighting depression, please sit them down and talk to them. Don’t just tell them “you’ll be fine”. You’ll be fine doesn’t help shit. By saying that, you just make them feel they just wasted their time telling you their problems.
David and Mofe has been really helpful in my life. Without them gassing me up, telling me to do what I gotta do, appreciating me, I wouldn’t be here to be very honest. I almost gave up on this blog, I felt that I wasn’t doing enough, like it wasn’t my best. It was like I wasn’t doing I something right. But I thank God for them in my life.
There’s one thing I know, when finding your whole true self, you doubt about what you’re really capable of, which is how I feel everytime. You might find everything that you did right now not cool and interesting enough. But Mofe made me understand that what I’m doing right now, whether big or small, is what made me who I am today.
So I’m just going to keep writing. And I hope that you’re looking forward to what i am writing about in future. It might not be that good, but I want you to know that my writing is one of the ways I tell you how I live my life.
I know this is just a short random post but, Ciao Adiós!!!0