Hey lovers, how have you been these past few weeks?
Please if you’ve not been a fan of Kanye West, please be a fan now. He’s been making good music and this album is no exception. Just get Jesus is King and Jesus is born album please. I am actually begging you guys. You won’t regret it, I promise you.
How was Christmas tho? Christmas wasn’t all that to me. I guess it was because I wasn’t anticipating it as much as others did. Yes, it is a celebration of love with your family, friends and people around you, but all I wanted to do all day was sleep, watch movies and eat, and that wasn’t even possible when we had the whole family around.
They take Christmas seriously in my house lol. They cooked overnight for the main day and expected me to stay up with them, but your babe couldn’t abeg. After the whole stress of getting home that Tuesday, do you expect me to stay awake with them?
Our community organised a Christmas party for their “so called” Progressive club, which lasted until late night. It was actually fun. Seeing my mum and other people dance to these songs (you definitely know the songs i’m talking about) made me cheer up a little bit. Especially my mum! She will always want to learn any dance that’s trending because of days like this.
The highlight of my Christmas was the food part. I ate to the extent that I couldn’t move well lol. Now, my stomach is not the same way it used to be. It’s now getting big. I’m sorry to disappoint you guys, I promise to do something about it, but definitely not reducing the amount of food I eat. You can suggest another way please.
Moving on to what 2019 taught me;
2019 has hands down been my worst year, my year of learning, the year I lost myself and came back strong, the year I met amazing people, and the year I lost people after many years. It certainly hasn’t been all sunshine and roses; I’ve had my own fair share of sad and stressful moments throughout the last 12 months. But 2019 has taught me so much more than any other year.
In 2019, I’ve seen fear, grief, happiness at some point,opportunity, growth, discovery. vulnerability, and more strength than i’ve had in years. It’s been a tale of two halves. It’s been rock bottom and the highest peaks. It’s been light and dark, It’s been everything, lessons after lessons.
Here are the important things 2019 taught me:
- Faith: There is no relationship more precious than the one you have with Christ. No lover, friend, nothing comes before Him. Although I backslided few times, but God is ever faithful to bring me back up. I can’t say I tried my best worshipping him, even though it was part of this year’s resolution to be close to him. But I learnt FAITH. It kept me through the year, and I believe it will continue the same way. He provided me with the best room mates that were closer to God than I was, and that helped me a lot.
- Self love and awareness: Self awareness is so important. The ability to take a look at your life without any attachment to it being right or wrong, acknowledging how you feel, being able to pick out the root cause and not judge yourself is one trait I’m glad I picked up this year. Whether I am being a hater, deeply hurt or 100% unbothered, I stay alert to myself and that brought my confidence. I had amazing people who helped me build that confidence. Kofo, David, Cornelia, Temileyi and of course my mum. I won’t trade you guys for anything.
- Social Media: Constantly scrolling and seeing everyone’s achievement has nothing to do with where you are. who you are and what you have. If taking a break will kill that comparison seed, then do so! Don’t let the next person’s success discredit any part of your journey because no journey is the same. Followers and likes hold no real value, I mean it isn’t currency neither does it have the power to bring life so don’t let it have any form of power on your mental or emotional state. Don’t compare yourself with someone else’s life online. Trust me, the anxiety will surely set in. It’s something I can relate to.
- Just because you’re good at something, doesn’t mean “it is something you should do”: Not everything has to be something. If you read a book, you don’t have to review it online. If you watch a film, you don’t have to start a debate about it on Twitter. If you have a hobby, you don’t have to monetize it and make it a “thing”. You can just let things be, do things and enjoy things and they’re still as important and meaningful, even if you don’t share it online. Like I said in my last blog post, just because you know how to sing or dance doesn’t mean you’ll be successful at it.
- Love and friendship: You can fall in love and fall out but in that falling out whether I wanted to or not, finding my strength to move on from people is easier said than done, a lesson that only comes with experiencing the process. The whole learning when and how to close someone’s chapter in your book is more of you than the one you lost and it happens as part of growing. Yes, it hurts. Yes, you’ll still breathe. People don’t stay forever and you have to put that in mind always. You lose some, you get some. That’s how life is.
Along with the highs there were definitely lows. The lows made me forget about the good parts of the year sometimes and a lot of questioning what’s next and where I’m heading seemed to be the general theme of this year. I’ve learnt that I really need to be okay with giving up things that I can’t control even though my whole self wants to control every minute of my life. I’ve learnt that sometimes plans just don’t pan out and it’s totally okay that your 3 year plan could have been extended to 4 or 5. I’ve learnt that sometimes just trying is more than enough. I’ve also learnt what’s important in my life and that sometimes people who you thought wouldn’t hurt you, do. Sometimes they might even be family. But time will heal the mistakes made, after all you’re blood.
And in all my learning, I finally started my blog after so much procrastination. It wasn’t all good. I didn’t post all my hard days but if you’re reading this, it just shows I made it through those “hard” days. Maybe 2019 wasn’t all that great, maybe it was! Maybe you won the lottery, closed a big deal, started a new business or possibly lost a job, lost a lot of money or even lost a loved one, if you gain anything from reading this, I just want to encourage you that as long as there is life, things get better.
How was your 2019?
How clearly are you able to see the ups and downs but maintain a stance of gratitude?
What was your important lesson?
This is my last post for the year. Thank you for staying with me, thank you for your support, you love. I am forever grateful.
See you all in 2020
Love and light ❤❤